January 2012
December 2011
Sometimes I look at all my beautiful shoes then I feel awful for caring about pretty things.
I just don’t want to be broken any more.
I'm happy and today was just happy,
And things are great so I should pass out before I think otherwise.
Going to spend a few days in the country with my sweetie. We’ve seen about a dozen snowy owls so far and I’m way too excited about it.
I love you. I miss you. I’m glad you’re in my life. I wish I could talk to you more. I wish you were there every day. I’m glad you are there every time I need you. You make me smile so often. You make me smile when nobody understands. You make me smile when it’s inappropriate to talk about the smile on my face.
This is for a few different people. If you think it’s for you, it’s probably for you.
Lovelovelovelovelove. All the love.
I’m older today. Whatever the fuck that means.
"It's OK to be Neither" →
rethinkingschools.org
This is a wonderful article written by a 1st grade teacher in Milwaukee, Wisconsin about how she taught the concept of gender to her class and about how some early education can help children become more accepting of gender variance in our society.
It also links so some great books about being different and breaking down gender norms that are for young children!
What do you folks think about teaching young children about gender?
This is so wonderful.
I'm just going to answer all of these now, okay?
- 1.Sexuality: Queerest as they come.
- 2.Insecurities: Everything and nothing. Depends on my mood.
- 3.Best memory: Every time I woke up, looked out the window, and was so proud of where I managed to get in my life. They blend together.
- 4.Worst memory: Doesn't do to dwell on those, but basically anything that involved me hurting people more than I had to.
- 5.Last person you kissed: My love.
- 6.Why: They make me weak and silly and strong and so so happy.
- 7.Last thing you fantasized about: Something sexy that I immediately made happen.
- 8.Greatest fears: Being stuck. I try to stick to the people who don't mind if I run away and to the people who will run away with me.
- 9.How you changed over the last 3 years: SO FUCKING MUCH I CAN'T EVEN. No. Not gonna try. I'm a lot better at living these days.
- 10.What you want more than anything: To keep exploring in every way that I can. To be homeless and happy for as long as I can.
- 11.Bad habit: booze, smoking things, letting myself get too sad.
- 12.Crush: Too many to even list. People are fantastic.
- 13.Virgin: I've had a few...
- 14.Biggest regrets: Not being honest about feelings I've had in the past, not trusting myself.
- 15.Wildest thing you've ever done: leaving my entire life behind me for the first time, not having any idea when I would return.
- 16.Hottest teacher at your school: My grade one teacher's assistant, Mme Hardy. She was sweet and quiet and the nicest woman I'd met so far in life.
- 17.Where do you see yourself in 5+ years: I DON'T DO THAT SHIT. I see myself older, with more experiences, maybe a different hair style, probably still with my love.
- 18.Favourite band: Of Montreal.
- 19.Worst thing you've ever said to your mother: Probably when tiny me told her I hated her.
- 20.Weirdest dream: Too many. TOO MANY. I tend to write them down.
Sometimes maybe you should take the advice: don’t cut your hair after you start drinking.
I just shaved part of my head by accident.
Great Things Have Happened by Alden Nowlan →
writersalmanac.publicradio.org
This has been making me really really happy for the last day or so. You should read it. It’s short and so so sweet.
I am in a room full of people who all just tried to lick their touch-screen phones to test the sensors.
Stoner problems
My story isn’t worth three restarts.
- A: I think I win.
- M: What? How do you win?
- A: You be me.
So I think working 26 days in a row might be my max. I was completely losing my mind the last few hours of my shift. Making strange noises and flying garbage bags like kites and inventing super awesome dance moves instead of cleaning. SEND ME AWAYYYYY NOW PLEASE! I just want beers and sleep-ins and friends and time to do things!
Two more sleeps… skype times soon, friends?
learnyouracbs replied to your photo: Hello, beautiful. Would you like to come home with…
HERE MOTHERFUCKER GO TO HERE
DUDE THOUGH. Do you have any money to get to some other place? We can stay in hostels and have adventures? I want new places!
Edit: Like, even Chicago or something close-ish. Don’t even care.
taliae replied to your photo: Hello, beautiful. Would you like to come home with…
I’m still incredibly sad you can’t use it to come to Aust!
You and me both! But I’m making mad money right now so that I can get there like a real person some day soooooon!
So my first job since last Christmas is working 27 days in a row for nine to eleven hours a day. How’s that for getting back in to the swing of things. OH GOD I MISS MY LIFE.
Things I'm currently excited for in order of appearance:
A shower, my week off, sweaters, tattoo, birthday in Edmonton, christmas in Regina, running away to all the places with my lovely.
Keep going, self. Good things to happen.
November 2011
I had really weird dreams and have been feeling off every time I have a minute to think/breathe (which is not all that often these days). All I remember is being incredibly depressed and crying so so so desperately.
I think my meds are working too well in my waking life, so my subconscious has to make up for it. Is that a thing? I can’t cry when I want to, can’t stay sad when I feel it coming and try to welcome it.
Hard life? I don’t know, sad is okay sometimes. I haven’t had a good cry in weeks.
literaryfool replied to your post: I wish being agender wasn’t such a foreign concept to most people.
I’m from a really smaller place where being agender is unheard of/not seen much etc, so thats why i follow people on tumblr! If i ever say anything to offend you somehow, please know it is due to inexperience, not hate.
Awww, thanksyou. I don’t really get offended or angry at people, because generally they just really don’t know. I don’t expect them to. I’ve been agender for as long as I can remember, and really only learned it was a thing in the last two years. I just wish it was more out there, and I wish I was more outgoing and able to educate people myself. BUT MAYBE I DO BECAUSE TUMBLR?
I wish being agender wasn't such a foreign concept to most people.
The number of times in a day that I am called a girl/lady is making me feel super down. It’s making me less okay with feminine pronouns, just out of spite.
Also this one girly boy was really nice to me for a few days, then snubbed me completely when he found out I have a vagina. Fuck this.
My hair is really wet and I’m super happy in my underwear, but I would like a smoke and that requires a 5 minute walk and 5 layers.
My life is really hard. I don’t know if you knew.
